Friday, September 28, 2007

Demotivated.

I'm quite demotivated to work lately and I think its affecting my blogging as well, I've been deleting more drafts rather than completing them. Working late has become a thing of the past and I simply cringe at the thought of coming to office during weekends, which unfortunately, I have to, for this coming Saturday and Sunday. Yup, its THAT bad, sigh. Is this a sign that I should start scanning for another opportunity elsewhere? Or is it Fated ala Adrian?

I kinda managed to list down a few probable cause to the above situation ::

(i) Uncertainties abundant. There's no solid plan for the current project as the dateline keeps getting postponed, so flexible like yoga! Its as though it'll never gonna end! Working on the same stuff again and again and over-again is never a good thing.

(ii) Uncertainties abundant 2. At the same time, I keep getting thrown into minor enhancement projects which I totally hate it! Anything worst than finding a dead cockroach in your Maggi Goreng Sotong has got to be assigned to a completed project with 0% knowledge and 100% expectations.

(iii) Uncertainties abundant 3. I have absolutely no idea what's the plan after I completed the 6 months assignment here. When inquired, I get, we'll see as things go. WTF! Imagine you asking me the progress of the module and I answer the same thing lah, can?

(iv) Uncertainties abundant 4. Resource management crisis, to date, I have changed 3 different PCs and worked on 6 different notebooks.

(v) Colleagues from hell, possible reincarnation from flies or mosquitoes. Both having attitude problems, one having the skills but think too highly of himself and bad at communicating, while the other not having the skills but also think very highly of himself. The other day I screwed the latter, giving him a huge piece of my mind and suddenly, he became much more approachable. :)

I wonder how my PM manage to deal with them so easily, perhaps he has tolerance + 100.

(vi) Unappreciated.

(vii) This is totally personal. I miss the girlfriend. I miss my family and friends. I miss life in KL.

I shall head home early today in preparation for an awful day ahead, and the day after tomorrow.

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