Of us.

She came over to my place to have dinner together, a final meal together I guess, before I head-off again. We didn't talk much throughout the meal; she complained that I was paying more attention to the idiot-box. I smiled. By the expression on her face, I can sense that she's not really happy with me being away yet again. Not that too far apart, but not within the distance that allow us to meet up hassle-free. I looked at her, she's not being the usual chirpy and energetic person that I know, as she tried to smile, albeit a weak one. Shouldn't blame her, nobody enjoys going through this torment, again and again.

The smile, just to comfort me, and telling me that she is, and will be strong, I guess. Have to admit that she's doing better now, coping with my absence from her side that is, must be all those training from me being away so many times. Right, that's a bad joke. Who would enjoy not having their significant half being there for them? The feeling of loneliness and neglected, I felt them as well, way too often. Believe me when I say its even harder on me, being in a foreign land, away from all comforts and familiarity. But its alright, because I know that I have you, and that's enough to give me all the support that I need.

For a moment, it felt as though I was dining with someone else, a person I know, but not that well. Cleaning up after the meal, I headed for a quick shower. A million and one thoughts ran through my mind, about us, past, present and future. It took longer than expected.

Later, she mentioned that she needed to head home, as there are some outstanding workload that requires her attention. Its sad to see her leave, but it must've been way harder for her to see me leaving, further, longer. As I accompanied her to her car, she told me to take good care of myself and she'll be looking forward to have me back by her side again. I felt exactly the same, I said. We hugged. I stood by the gate as I see her drive off, waving goodbye from inside her car as she drive past. And the lights fainted slowly....

And I have yet to finish packing...